Boredom Ponderings

When should you start worrying on what you are going to do in life?
Because my mum said thats where she went wrong because she didn't know what she wanted to do.
But the thing is I'm not amazing at anything so my talents don't make the decision up for me. I'm ok at everything but I'm not amazing at something.
I love art and music but I can't draw very well and I can't sing or play an instrument.

I can beat everyone at singstar but thats an electronic liar because one of my friends is amazing at singing and i beat her. And my sister was actually going to be in a band and I beat her so easily. And I can beat my friends at guitar hero and most of them actually play guitars. SO basically its decided that I'm a ps2musician but thats not really going to help me.

I like looking up new bands and everything so quite a few people I know say i should become a DJ because for my age apparently I know a lot of music.

I don't think I would be good as a DJ though.
I just don't want to be stuck in a boring job that's all.

I just wrote this here because my friends won't care and I just needed to let it out.

As I thought it was quite intersting reading Alicia's and Sticks' 100 facts and I am really bored and it's a good idea I thought I might have a go too. I hope you don't mind.

1.Most people think my name is a nickname but it really is Rhed and it's said like the colour red.
2. I don't know where it originates from. I think my parents made it up.
3. I am mixed race (1/2 Jamacian 1/2 White)
4. I love going to London.
5. I enjoy walking home in the rain whilst listening to electro or rock music.
6. I love the Mighty Boosh.
7. I have taught myself how to play the keyboard using YouTube but I still suck.
8. I do lots of random doodles on all of my work.
9. I would like to have a future in something creative.
10. Apparently I have a wierd sense of humour.
11. When I get depressed I walk around for days and don't talk. But this is usually for two days and just once a year deal.
12. I once found 50 euros on the floor at Disneyland.
13. I want to be able to sing.
14. I want to to able to speak French because it sounds so nice.
15. I wish I was confident.
16. I'm not upset that I'm ugly, I'm jealous that all my friends are so beautiful.
17. I am really shy and boring with people I don't know well but I get better as you get to know me.
18. I want blue eyes.
19. I like dogs but they don't like me.
20. My neighbour's cat has a really ugly face.
21. I have to listen to at least 3 hours of music a day.
23. I have a box where I keep any souviners from gigs in and I write about that night if it was eventful.
24. Once every few weeks I spend half a day searching for new bands.
25. I have never been in a relationship.
26. I used to have really big hair you could say a sidefro ( It was too heavy and so fell to the sides) but now it has been relaxed.
27. I don't know if God exists.
28. I hate how people are dying for the most petty reasons and the people who are commiting the crimes are getting younger I'm talking 14, 15 year olds. A girl got killed just for being a goth!
29. I hate chavs/ pikes as they are usually the main culprits of these crimes and they're just out to make your life a misery.
30. I hate it when people use the n word and then everyone looks at me to see what my reaction is.
31. I don't know how to feel in those situations
32. In my group of friends if someone has got a problem they come to me and I help them out.
33. I don't know how I got assigned this position.
34. When I am upset I suffer in silence because I hate getting people down.
35. If I knew I was going to die soon I would take heroin because then I have nothing to lose.
36. I have been fat my whole life.
37. Age restrictions really piss me off, especially if they're for gigs or stand up.
38. I don't want to get married.
39. I went to NAGTY (National Academy of Gifted and Talented Youth) and hated every second.
40. I'm not considering university.
41. I think my future won't be as good as it could be.
42. I come off as pesemistic but that means I can never be disappointed right?
43. I am actaully quite optimistic.
44. I change my mind quite a lot.
45. At 18 months I could recite the whole alphabet ( apparently thats good)
46. I hate how my friends get depressed when there's nothing wrong with their lives.
47. Up until recently I was the only person within my group of friends whose parents weren't together.
48. My dad used to be an asshole and I comforted my mum whenever he upset her.
49. I think that my childhood experience has prevented me from letting guys into my life as easily as I could have.
50. I care about my mum more than anyone else.
51. I am more of a giver than a reciever.
52. I'm not scared of dying, I'm afraid of not doing everything in life that I wanted.
53. I like to keep an open mind.
54. I modelled once when I was younger and the money I got paid I spent on Barbies.
55. I feel slightly uncomfortable eating meat.
56. I try really hard to please everyone else.
57. I get really paranoid when someone doesn't like me.
58. I would like everyone to like me.
59. I wish I could stand up for myself and not feel bad when I am sometimes selfish.
60. I have 28 copies of NME.
61. I was once deaf for a whole day because my ears popped in the aeroplane.
62. I love dancing and not caring how I look.
63. I pretend that I'm into R&B when I'm with my dad.
64. Most places where I go I get mistaken for being 16/17 and I don't know why.
65. I lie about my age quite a lot because I feel like I get judged by the number.
66. I love having wierd dreams.
67. I have a really stupid jaw so I get really paranoid about smiling and ever since I was little I have usually put my hand in front of my mouth everytime I laugh.
68. I want to meet the Mighty Boosh.
69. I apparently have quite long fingers (my middle finger is 9cms)
70. I don't think they're long.
71. I think karma incidents (i.e where someone pokes someone then runs off laughing and trips) are really funny.
72. Inisde jokes are the best kind of joke.
73. I hate people who think they are random, funny, or wierd and are in actual fact the complete oppsite.
74. I don't think I am anything like the cyber me.
75. There are only three dreams that i can actually remember.
76. All of my dreams that I can remember are really vivid.
77. I want to be able to control my dreams.
78. Russell Brand's Radio show make my Saturday night when I'm at home.
79. I love art.
80. I like different fashion ie, Red Mutha, Charles of London.
81. When I go swimming I love to stay under the water until I think I'm going to pass out and then come back up again.
82. I love music that gives you a high and makes you feel really alive.
83. I like being alone but I hate it at the same time.
84. My favourite films are Rocky Horror Picture Show, Mirrormask, Trainspotting and Saw 1 &2
84. I have had a bit of pencil stuck in my hand ( which is still visible) for 5 years now after a stupid incident.
85. I can make one eye look one way and the other look in another direction.
86. My friends say I'm independant but I'm just as dependant as them.
87. I want to live in the city.
88. I would love to look back on my life and think that I used it well.
89. I really like Guitar Hero.
90. I get nicknamed Blue.
91. I don't want to live to an age where I can't do anything for myself.
92. I love strobe lights and loud music in a room where everyones going crazy.
93. I rarely ever wear make up and if I do its only eyeliner and mascara.
94. I have never got drunk but I do drink.
95. I want to see what its like to be drunk.
96. This is the most challenging thing I've done all day.
97. I don't learn much at school anymore because I just daydream in class.
98. I want to have been born in 1989.
99. I want a Rubix Cube bracelet.

Ok well before the signing we went to the Maison Bertaux I think it's called down Greek Street in Soho. We went there to see Noel's artwork and it is really good. Some of the things hes done have turned up in the Boosh eg, Jahooli the leopard and the snake from the Hitcher episode in Series one. There was a painitngs of Bryan Ferry, Freddie Mercury and Mick Jagger. There was a painitng of Naboo with his back turned with a caption that says "I'm gonna have to turn my back on you." There was also a painting of Dee with the caption, "The girl I love is called Dee she wears cowboy hats and tight trousers just like me." I thought that was really sweet. There were lots of little doodles and stories on the wall. Also the cafe is good too and it smells really nice. So if you're bored go there and see his exhibition its up till the 29th so you have the half term to get down there. You can buy his art too but you have to be quite well off because it ranges from £360-£8000...

Anwyay after that we went to the signing and they performed 6 or 7 songs. They were really good. Noel even turned up for a while but he disapperaed backstage because there were some crazy girl fans. Then we waited in line for them to sign stuff. They signed my album and they signed my friend's shoe. We also got Sue to leave a voice mail on my friends phone as she was in Bulgaria and she really likes them. ( She also missed the Horrors too which she was really annoyed about.) And then we waited around the shop looking at albums and we were given some posters advertising the signing that were around the shop. Then when we looked around to see where the Robots went we saw Ami from the former band DDIBB. We went down to her she loooked a bit lost. This is how the conversation went;
Bekki (my friend): Hi are you Ami from DDIBB?
Ami: Yeah I am Did you come to see the robots then?
Us: Yeah
Ami: Oh have they gone?
Jesse (my other friend): Well they might be backstage or something but they're not right here now.
Ami: Oh ok
Bekki: We came to see you at Brighton but you cancelled.
Ami's phone rings
Ami: Whoops sorry hold on one second
She answers it. i think it might have been Betty Q from team awesome as she was at the signing too.
Ami: Sorry about that, anyway what were you saying?
Bekki: We came to see you in Brigton but you weren't there.
Ami: Oh yeah sorry we didn't do the gig it's because we're not together anymore. I'm on tour at the moment ( might of explained why she had a big suitcase with her) and we are still going to do stuff just seperately.
Us: Oh ok
Bekki: Can we have a picture with you?
Ami: Yeah sure.
Bekki's brother takes the photo.
Us: Thanks
Ami: OK I have to go now nice meeting you bye.
She left.

We then considered following her to see where she went as we saw her meet up with Betty Q at the top and were curious as to who was up there but then decided not to because that would have been stalking. We did wait around in the shop though as we got amused by the fact that you could listen to any album that you wanted if you scanned the album at this place and then you could listen to it on the headphones.
After a while though we got bored and left but we did see a few other Robots fans lurking around the store to see if they came out, but I doubt they were still there or if they were they were in there for most of the night.

It was a really good day though. The Robots were really good and Ami was really nice. Still haven't had the chance to talk to Noel though. Meh maybe third time lucky.x

New year's resolution number one was to go to one gig a month.... January came and past and I didn't go to one. Resolution failed. Inside I'm disappointed but I hope that the amount if gig I am doing this month will make up for it. This month I am going to on gig a week. This is my February calendar.

7th Feb- Robots In Disguise, Huski, and another band

(possibly) 11th Feb- Robots In Disguise, DDIBB

16th Feb- Horrors, Crystal Castles, These New Puritans, Ulterior

22nd Feb- Cribs, Joe Lean and the Jing Jang Jong, Ting Tings, Does It Offend You Yeah?

27th Feb- Kate Nash

Sounds fun.

NEW BANDS anyone ?

Does anyone know any good bands because I'm bored of my music listening to it 24/7 so if anyone knows any bands (preferably alternative rock electro but I listen to anything really) then can you please tell me.

Thank you

Oh yeah and this has nothing to do with it but you can pre-order Mighty Boosh series 3 on DVD at amazon for about £13 but I don't think that includes postage and packaging and I think that it's released on the 28th of January.

This is going to be quite long because im so happy im saying all that happened.

Ok basically after really short notice me and two of my Jesse and Bekki and Bekki's older brother John all went to the Good Ship to watch a series of amazing bands. There were two that I had never heard of but I was mainly going to listen to Deaddoginblackbag, Trash Money and Dee Plume DJing. It wasn't that easy. Because we were all under 18 apart from John they wouldn't let us in at first and because Bekki had got us on the list somehow she was like "No. We're on the list" and then this woman was scrolling through the list and guess who was on the list. They went by the names of Noel Fielding and Julian Barratt and I was like holy shitsauce we had better get in. I doubted that they would turn up but I was still pretty excited.
In the end they let us in but they said that we had to go after the bands had finished and couldn't stay for the DJing which was a bit depressing.
When we got there another one of Bekki's friends were there (because we got there late) and they told us that Deaddoginblackbag had already played and Rich Fulcher was with them. And we were all quite annoyed about that. But we carried on watching the bands. We were standing around for a while and then someone was trying to squeeze past me. Jesse nudged me i turned around and there was Deaddoginblackbag (I'm going to write that in shorthand now because its a menace to keep typing all the time to DDIB and Rich Fulcher moving behind me and i was like wow.
After that was over I kept glancing at the entrance to see if Noel would turn up because if you haven't guessed already I hadn't seen him before and i am a little obsessed with him. But he didn't come. And so we were standing there for a while and then John came running to us saying Dee and Noel are outside ! So we quickly rushed to the entrance and he said that he hadnt seen them and I was like oh. And i was thinking life is just teasing me now. And then Jesse turned to me discreetly Noel and Dee are there and I was like whatever but decided to turn around anyway. The first thing I saw was Dee in her little hat she looked so sweet. And then I looked at the people around her and yes there was Noel aswel in his green jacket and silver boots. And i was just going wow wow wow wow the whole time I was there. It was so sweet though they make such a good couple. They were talking to each other for a while by the bar which was also where the DJ set was and thats where Noel became infatuated with a drawing of some rabid dog and he kept looking at it and touching it he even took a picture of it. it looked like it could be with slight editing though a mighty boosh character it even might have slightly looked like the crack fox. But if we ever see that character on the mighty boosh that looks like that picture i know where they got influenced from. Anyway Noel walked past me ( as i was i the best place all the time always nearest to all of them because Rich was standing right behind me most of the time) and went up to the higher balcony bit where all of the bands got ready and everything. Every now and then though he kept glancing to see where Dee was which I found quite sweet. And then he walked past me again to go and see Dee and they were talking for a while and then they walked right past me and stopped right next to me and were talking but I just can't remember what they were saying. Then Noel went back to the bar and Dee went down to dance shes a crazy dancer it was cool though she was wearing Sex Has Made Me Stupid top. At some point during this Noel threw a straw down at the dancefloor. Then after a while he went down (yes past me again) to dance.
Time passed and then we decided to go down just before Trash Money came on. Just before this one of the hosts were saying that anyone under 18 needed to leave but we weren't going to leave that early it was only 10.30 or something like that. I thought that I might be able to get away with it because apparently i look 18 anyway but Jesse looks 15 so she was a bit scared if any of the hosts saw her they'd kick her out.
Anyway we went down to the dancefloor and were there for a while and then Noel came along and started dancing right next to us. Honestly if i stepped forward 15 cms I would have been knocking into him. He looked happy with life so we were too scared to ask him for a photo or anything. And then Noel accidentaly wacked John round the face and Noel said sorry and kissed him. He's lovely. He was dancing for a while. By this time Dee had started Djing and was just above Noel. Noel doing some inside joke with her or something because they were both doing some type of signing to each other. Then Dee started talking to someone and Noel was trying to talk to her and he was shouting DEE really loud but the music was so loud she couldn't hear him and he was jumping up and down trying to grab her attention he even tried to grab her foot at one point.in the end he gave up and walked back and we were wowing because we were so close to him for quite a while. Then there was a guy walking around and he asked us if we had any ID and we said no and so he said we had to go and so we were walking out slowly and then we saw Noel really close and Bekki wanted a picture so she said to the guy that we had to talk to someone but he said no and we had to leave. So we got outside and we were kicking ourselves that we didn't get a picture with him. But then we turned around and saw Rich so Bekki went up to him and this is how this is how the conversation went.

Bekki: Hi I'm sorry do you mind if we can have a picture with you?
Rich: No that's great I love pictures!So why are you out here then?
Jesse: They chucked us out
Rich:Oh that's sad why?
Me: Because we're not old enough
Rich: Oh no I had that same problem once about 4 years ago............. No not really.
Bekki: Yer and we wanted to get a picture with Noel but they wouldn't let us.
Rich: Oh no i don't know what to say about that. He might come out. If he does you should jump on him
Me: Ok
Bekki: But we have to get a train now
Jesse: Stupid ID guy
Rich was shaking his head
Rich: You should get a gun....... is that wierd?
we laughed but then we had to go because otherwise we would have to wait till 6 in the morning to get home which i didn't really mind because I wanted to get a picture but it would be a bit late. Anwyay the ID guy had come out and said that we had to go. Or wait around the corner. So we said bye and went home. We kind of hoped that we would miss the train so then we could hang around outside the club.
I'm so annoyed that we didn't get a picture with Noel because now it feels like i never saw him and it is so surreal. It feels like he wasn't there when I know he was.
I hate my mind doing this to me. We don't know whether Julian turned up I don't think he did though.
But so far that was the best night of my life. I wish I talked to Noel though I'm kicking myself because of that but I saw Dee again woooh.

P.S Sorry that this was so long i just had to let it all out x

I went to see IAMX last night with the supporting band Soho Dolls. It was a pretty fucking fantastic night! The Soho Dolls were really cool i already knew about them but I hadn't heard all of their songs before. Prince Harry was my favourite and the keyboardist reminded me quite a bit of Joshua Von Grimm. At the end the Soho dolls were in the crowd and I stood next to him for a while. I was going to say "you're really good" and all that jazz but he was a bit preoccupied with a woman that he obviously knew so I didn't.
Then after some agonisingly long waiting IAMX came onstage. Anyways he threw a feather boa into the crowd and guess who has some of the feathers????? Uhuh twas me! Reading back through that I must seem so sad Oh well I'm keeping them as a souvernier for that night.

Good times good times.

Oh STiCKs if you're reading this I just want to say that I saw you there!!! I was the girl with the fairly big hair. I did smile at you but then we had to go so i couldn't come over and talk to you.

Only two more people who I really want to see or meet before I die and that would be Noel Fielding and Julian Barratt because they're such great guys and oh I just want to meet them. Which reminds me the new series is really good so far, bit more sinister in parts well in the episode "Eels" it sure was. Favourite one so far has got to be "The Power Of The Crimp" it's got so many songs and crimps in it (well like 2 songs and 10 mini crimps and 1 big crimp but that's still quite a lot for one episode. Yes I love that one so much. Oh "Journey to the Centre Of The Punk" is pretty good too. I like that white top that Noel's wearing in it with the red lines. Really nice.
Oh yes that reminds me. I am so angry kind of because the Mighty Boosh has got really mainstream now well not really mainstream but you know what I mean. It will never be completely mainstream because its not mainstream comedy although one of my friends think that series 3 has a commercialised look to it now instead of the amateur look that it had in the first series. i do kind of agree with her I do kind of miss the amateurness but all of the series' are good in a different way and I love it for that. I love all of the series' the same. Anyway my anger... yeah well there's like these plastics and they're like Oh yer the Mighty Boosh and they don't even know the half of it. They only know the Soup Song and thats about it. i basically blame this boy in my class, hes pretty cool but he always goes on and on about the Mighty Boosh and he showed the whole class the Eels episode on the internet and I was like noooooooooooo. But it was too late and now tons of people going around thinking they know it all when they have only seen one episode and it wasn't even that! I'm going to have to hit that boy one day.

As I'm pretty bored and I'm just pouring out my thoughts onto here like milk on coco pops I'm going to say that I'm starting to like some bands like Eighties Matchbox B-Line Disaster they're pretty good they kind of remind me of the Horrors in a way. They're really alike but completely different at the same time. I also like Test-Icicles but only one of their songs truly.

I'm rambling on ok ok finish erm oh yer to add to that list of the two people that I want to meet or see before I die I want to see Sue Denim and Dee Plume again because you have to admit that they're a pretty cool duo.

I want to say so much but anyone that is reading this must either be falling asleep from boredom or gouging their eyes out with soft wooden spoons. Can you even get soft wooden spoons ? Who knows .x

After much waiting the Mighty Boosh fest has begun. I didn't know until yesterday but you can watch the first episode of the new series online. Here's the link:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/mightyboosh/
This will get you to their page and then you have to click watch episode now. I love it!

And has anyone spotted the advert ?
Here's the link to it because I don't know how to show youtube videos on here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9_mKIGH7Ws

I'm so happy I can't wait till the rest of the series comes out.

Today i went back to school (sarcasticly shouts) Joy!

It's not that bad really. Well it is really. Friends are good. Learning bad. I mean when I took art I didn't realise how much you were expected to do and when I was given my task all that was running through my head was my mind voice (the voice you create in your mind when you're thinking that kind of sounds like you) saying in slow-motion Shhhhhhhhiiiiiiittttt.

So basically now I have to become really antisocial to keep up with all the work. My friend is also doing the same course as me and she hates it too.

Anyway we were discussing at lunch about the Robots gig as it was one of the best nights of our lives and one of my friends said that one of her friends went to the Robots gig on the Wednesday and because it was a small place, Dee and Sue met the crowd afterwards and Noel and Chris were there and it turned out they were the robots that were dancing and so we kind of assumed that they were also at the gig at Islington on Thursday. It doesn't matter if it wasn't though, Dee and Sue were amazing on their own.

Sorry if this blog isn't making much sense because I'm listening to music at the same time. And if you're bored I would just stop reading it now as it doesn't get much more exciting than this.

Oh yeah and does anyone else get the same problem where people ask you what you want for Chistmas and you say " Oh I don't know. Just get me anything." They get you some pretty cool stuff but then Boxing Day comes and then you're like " Oh yeah that's what I want!" but then it's too late and then you're like great I'll have to wait till next Christmas or my birthday to get it and then by the time those events come round you don't like those things anymore and you can't think of what you want and it's a vicious circle that gets repeated over and over and I have just realised that this is a very long sentence and I just hope that noone is reading this out loud as they would probably be struggling for air by now if they're not bright enough to take a breath unless they're signalled to by little commas or fullstops so I will just stop this sentence now to spare them.

There you go.

Oh and as i am now officially bored of all of my music can anybody tell me any cool bands that are like alternative or electro or indie as those are the main categories that I like I would be most grateful and will give them a cyber hug !

Thank you
xxxxx

If you have heard of the band Deaddoginblackbag and love them then you will be as ecstatic as I am to find out that they have released an album which you are able to buy on their MySpace.

Here is the link to their MySpace page; http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=91088196

You can buy this 6 track album for £4.99. I think this includes postage if you are in the UK but don't hold it to me. The tracklisting is; Love Meat, Breeding for Money, The Mottled Scars Of Rabies, Boys In Bands,Tony Caesar and It's a surprise!

The last one "It's a surprise" I don't know if that is actually the name of the song or whether the song is in fact a surprise and you have to find out what the song is.

But yes that's the dealio do with it what you wish as long as it is for the good of humanity.

And now I'm off as I am unable to concerntrate on the Russell Brand show fully whilst typing this.

Good Night x